Today is my husband's birthday. He has been in bed most of the day. He got up a few times but went right back.
I was hoping we would be able to get together with some friends for a quick dinner to celebrate, but he isn't up to it.
As I am writing, I am wondering if the idea of going out with friends was more for my benefit than his. Since he started treatment, we haven't socialized at all. He is just not up to it physically or mentally. Just the idea of having to make small talk makes him anxious right now, and I totally understand that. However at times, I do feel very isolated.
Showing posts with label listen to your body. Show all posts
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Sunday, August 30, 2009
Thursday, July 30, 2009
A Call for Help
Last night Steve collapsed and hit his head (the temple) on a wood table. When we got to the emergency room, his blood pressure was 158/92. The doctor did a thorough exam and ordered a CAT scan to make sure there was no trauma to his brain. There wasn't.
The doctor wasn't sure why he collapsed. Possibly the medication. Possibly his blood pressure (which is not normally). But I believe that there is a third possibility. Once again, he ignored what his body was telling him and did too much.
I realize that having hepatitis c, and feeling sick all of the time, Steve harbors a lot of guilt about the things he can't do. So he pushes himself, and I believe last night he went beyond his limits.
I have been going to school to get my Bachelor's degree, and last night was my final class. While I was at school, he went to the store and bought me a graduation present. After that, he walked the dogs. The grass was wet, and they got dirty. So he gave each of them a bath. When I got home, he gave me a big hug, told me how proud he was of me and dropped to the floor.
I don't mean to sound unsympathetic, but I am so frustrated. I don't know what to do to make him slow down. I understand that his heart is in the right place, but he needs to use his head and think of the big picture. If he keeps going the way he is, he won't be able to continue the treatment- or worse.
If anyone has any advice for me, or for my husband, that could possibly get through to him, I would appreciate your comments. Maybe it will help him to hear from others that have experienced many of the same feelings that he has.
Thank you for your support.
The doctor wasn't sure why he collapsed. Possibly the medication. Possibly his blood pressure (which is not normally). But I believe that there is a third possibility. Once again, he ignored what his body was telling him and did too much.
I realize that having hepatitis c, and feeling sick all of the time, Steve harbors a lot of guilt about the things he can't do. So he pushes himself, and I believe last night he went beyond his limits.
I have been going to school to get my Bachelor's degree, and last night was my final class. While I was at school, he went to the store and bought me a graduation present. After that, he walked the dogs. The grass was wet, and they got dirty. So he gave each of them a bath. When I got home, he gave me a big hug, told me how proud he was of me and dropped to the floor.
I don't mean to sound unsympathetic, but I am so frustrated. I don't know what to do to make him slow down. I understand that his heart is in the right place, but he needs to use his head and think of the big picture. If he keeps going the way he is, he won't be able to continue the treatment- or worse.
If anyone has any advice for me, or for my husband, that could possibly get through to him, I would appreciate your comments. Maybe it will help him to hear from others that have experienced many of the same feelings that he has.
Thank you for your support.
Friday, July 24, 2009
Let Your Body Be Your Guide
Steve's trying really hard to keep up with his life. But his routine, however simple it is, is stripping him of all of his energy. He has been trying to fight it, but today he realized that he has to stop pushing himself.
We were running errands this morning-- nothing strenuous. First we dropped off our dogs at the groomer. Then we went and got something to eat, because he was feeling pretty nauseous. After that, we went to the library. As soon as we walked through the door, Steve started feeling dizzy, became short of breath, and had to sit down. So I got my books quickly, and we left.
On the way home, he said to me, "I have to start listening to my body. I've been trying to fight it, and act like I'm not on treatment, but I am." When we got home, he got into bed and went to sleep.
Tonight he told me that he realized if doesn't give in to his body, the treatment is going to over power him. If he wants to stay on the treatment, and rid himself of the hep c, he has to listen and give his body what it needs.
We were running errands this morning-- nothing strenuous. First we dropped off our dogs at the groomer. Then we went and got something to eat, because he was feeling pretty nauseous. After that, we went to the library. As soon as we walked through the door, Steve started feeling dizzy, became short of breath, and had to sit down. So I got my books quickly, and we left.
On the way home, he said to me, "I have to start listening to my body. I've been trying to fight it, and act like I'm not on treatment, but I am." When we got home, he got into bed and went to sleep.
Tonight he told me that he realized if doesn't give in to his body, the treatment is going to over power him. If he wants to stay on the treatment, and rid himself of the hep c, he has to listen and give his body what it needs.
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